Goodbye

Thank you to everyone who listened to me... I appreciate it. I won't be posting here anymore.

I think i've reached a new low

Bad day.

Go up stairs to get something to eat and use the restroom at around 1 a.m.. On the way to the bathroom, I slip on something, fall, and hit my head on the floor in the process. It hurt. What's worse is I woke everyone up. Then I realize what I slipped on was a pile of dog vomit. Everyone comes out of their room expecting an intruder or some other spookey night occurance, and instead it is me laying in a pile of dog vomit which I have slipped on during my way to the bathroom.

For waking up everyone up the task of cleaning it up is delegated to me.

I realize this is a pointless self-serving post that none of you care about. I'm making it anyway. I hate dog vomit.

Truth

Beliefs can be absolute in our minds. But our faith in them does not speak of their validity, only of our commitment to them.

Republican Talk Show Host

I've heard some of the most ridiculous things today with the election coming up.

One host invited liberals to call in and talk with him about "the issues" (I use that term loosely) in an effect to make liberals look bad for his listeners so that they are motivated to vote Tuesday.

A typical call went something like this.

Caller: "Hello."
Host: "Well hello there. You say your name is david?"
Caller: "Yes?"
Host: "Can you prove that's your real name?"
David: "I could if necessary..."
Host: "Well, alright, go ahead."
David: "First of all, I don't think it's right to judge the entire democratic party by John Kerry's comments. That's horrible generalization."
Host: "WHY DO YOU HATE AMERICA."
David: "Um...um... I don't...?"
Host: "Answer the question!"
David: "I don't hate America. I love my country!"
Host: "You hate everything about us! The military, the culture, WHY DO YOU HATE AMERICA!"
David: "I...don't hate the military."
Host hangs up on the caller.
Host: "You see these crazy libs? Never willing to answer the question."

And I'm not kidding either. That's paraphrased.

Hi.

We wish you a merry Christmas.
We wish you a merry Christmas.
We wish you a merry Christmas.
And a Happy New [orefise].

Torture?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RdPyTFvJDfc&NR

This video is ridiculous. O'Reilly completely ingores the being stripped and put in a freezing room component of the story. Not to mention he completely ignores the woman's point.

Fight Club Quote

Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who’ve ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War’s a spiritual war… our Great Depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won’t. And we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off. - Fight Club



Yeah, I guess that's one way of looking at modern reality. An endless spiral of consumerism in which we work tirelessly to chase after material possessions which are only temporary. We exist in perpetual debt. We owe money til the day we die. Our houses, cars, college loans, anything and everything worth having and significant is bought on credit. We're up to our eyes in debt and it's NECESSARY on a societal level. Infact it's normal to take a part of this. If you refuse to, you're the abnormal one.

And while I guess that's all good and valid, there's another way to look at it entirely. The system of debt, is an intricate economic dynamic. In which we all help each other off of good faith. Everyone owes everyone, in that way we're all helping each other. And then I remember that the banking community is making money off of the interest of it all. And so it still goes back to exploitation. But it's fun to dream that in some way Modern America isn't about leeching, but symbiotic existence.

Law of Large Numbers

Hang in there. I know you saw the title and thought, oh dear god, he's gonna math geek on us. And thought about surfing away immediately. Hold on. I promise you there's something entertaining and rewarding at the end of this.

(That reminds me of a sub-story. In Stephen Hawking's book "A Brief History of the Universe" he describes the Big Bang theory, black holes, singularities, and all of the other odd physical phenomenons theorized by modern-day cosmologists. He does so with only 1 equation throughout the entire book, e=mc^2, because he claims that for every equation he includes within the book, the number of people who read it will half.)

Back to the topic at hand. The Law of Large numbers states that with enough chances, any event with a possibility of occuring will. Lets say there's a... .00002% chance that something will happen, and there's about 6 billion chances of it occuring. That means 6 billion instances where it could occur. 6 billion * .00002% is equal to 1200. That means on average about 1200 of those 6 billion chances, that thing will happen. There's 6 1/2 billion humans on the planet.

No matter how rare or odd an opinion or circumstance may be, out of the six and a half BILLION people on planet earth, chances are that there are a few people who resemble it. It's fun to think about some of the more ridiculous scenarios. Here's a few for you.

There's someone out there who...

- Finds Giraffes sexy (guess there's hope for Elvaan after all)
- Thinks the world is still flat (probably a lot of them)
- Lost their virginity in a nursing home (I won't specify what age they are, it's funny no matter how you look at it)
- Is convinced that Elves live under their dwelling
- Enjoys Carrot Top
- Believes they are an alien
- Thinks they can cast magic
- Lost their genitals in a tragic nude-cooking accident (possibly involving a meat grinder)
- Finds this funny.

Life is short

No it's not. I want you to stare at the clock now. Stare for a minute. Good. Now if you still think life is short, I want you to go back and stare for five minutes. And if you still think life is short, shoot yourself in the face. Then it might've actually been for you.

Omega/Ultima talk + cool ways to die

Warning, this is a typical self-involved vaccuous blog post full of details that you don't want to hear about my existence. Read no further if you aren't interested in the mundane pointless details of this hopelessly self-important moron's life.

(Or it was until I decided to take it in another direction. Kept the header cause it's a message to all of my friendly blog-neighbors.)

Listening to music at 2:35 EST. School early tomorrow. Can't sleep, drepssed, never can when I am. Just kinda lay there in a bed for a long time tossing and turning, comtemplating all of the things that're bothering me. So I decided instead of wasting my time in bed, I'll waste my time here.

Beat Ultima & Omega today with Xenedra, Sabriel, Alveen (on Lyre), me (on Alveen), Muirnin, and Kiyoumi. RDM, BLM, PLD, WHM, WAR, WAR. People say you can't beat O/U with a Paladin but we did well enough and didn't shell out for ridiculously expensive medicines like Vile Elixers. Fights basically went like this.

Mammets were easy. Sabriel tanked all of them while we pulled off 1 by 1, initial hate setup. I think we got out of that with 37 minutes to spare, no deaths. Transmogrification is a pain in the ass. We handled ourselves well there, I think.

Went into Omega with 35-33 minutes left, I don't remember exactly. I got hit with a guided missile crit for like... 800 damage or something obscene like that, managed to live though. DDs chipped away at Omega well while balancing hate. We got him down to 4% before wiping. Screwed up on the CCBs though, Sab went right after the first CCB'r went, so we lost some time there. If that hadn't happened, we might've won on omega without wiping at all. Muir went down before she could get much use out of her 2 hour too. Not quite sure what happened there, I think that tied into the CCB mistake.

Got up to kill Omega, waited off weakness, and charged in. That was on the verge of disasterous, because he got magic-shield up right in time for Xene's burst so that did 0 damage. The wars managed to bring it down without anyone dying, and we went onto Ultima with, I think, 22-18 minutes left, I don't remember exactly.

Here we did really well for the first 60% or so again. Then we had more trouble with getting CCBs out at a good time. So we wiped around 33% or so. The last bit was fairly easy, we had enough CCBs to immobile it and it dropped very quickly. Muirnin got the killshot. I just wanted to say a bit about individual performances here, for the hell of it.

Sab (pld) - Kinda rough on the CCBs (but it wasn't entirely his fault), but he was tanking this BC as a Paladin which admittedly much harder. He did very well. Used blinding potions on Omega and straight-tanked Ultima. He made the mammets a cinche too. Omega was a bit rougher than it was for my group that had a NIN, but I think he took Ultima easier than I did on NIN.

Muirnin (war) - Did very good with sharing hate with me. Between the two of us we took quite a few blows from Ultima & Omega to give Sabriel time to catch his breath. Her rampages kicked ass which help us take down Ultima quickly at the end, and like I said, she got the killshot.

Alveen (on Lyre as WHM) - She did a very good job healing on the last attempt. Attempt before she kinda messed up a bit on Ultima which resulted in us wiping cause Sab got 1 hit. Can't blame her though, her connection goes wild sometimes, and her performance was flawless other than that. Very good with the status healing for certain, considering she kept a PLD alive (which is supposed to be extremely difficult for this fight), I'd say she deserves some praise.

Kiyoumi (RDM) - Very prompt with dispel. I don't know how well he did keeping refresh up cause I was a melee and never got it, far too busy doing my own thing. Good with the backup heals (at first he was a bit stingy with them, but he adjusted on the subsequent attempts) and debuffing. The manaburn patch with magic resistance really hurt his 2 houring though, chainspell now is more of a detriment than a help.

Xenedra - (BLM) Good timing on the stuns on Ultima's nuclear waste to breath attack. Don't think she ever once pulled hate while doing constant damage. That's incredibly important, especially on Omega considering that if she pulled hate and a guided missile was fired, it would've taken out all of our mages in 1 hit. She displayed a lot of restraint and at the same time really helped our forward momentum. Good with CCBs too, no mistakes.

Me (losing runs on SAM) - During the losing runs I kinda felt like SAM wasn't doing that hot. It really wasn't, Muirnin was definitely outdamaging me on the Weapons. Yuki never broke 300 damage, whereas rampages could do from 300-700. The one place SAM really shined though was during the mammets, I had hate for good on those. Meikyo was very disappointing. Don't think I made any real "mistakes" SAM just isn't any good for this one because /nin gimps us pretty bad at that level.

Me (winning run as WAR) - Granted I have no experience playing war/nin past level 37 or so, I think I did pretty well. I didn't bother keeping ichi up during the mammets, cause mages had plenty of MP and our goal was to just take stuff down asap there without having anyone die. Kinda sucked not having a Haubergeon, but it's on my account which I can't access right now so there's nothing I could do. Sipahi body sufficed well enough.

Rampage did crazy damage, but that's not really anything related to my skill, but Alv's gear she put on her for the run and her 6 axe merits. I put myself at the end of the CCB order so I didn't really have a chance to screw that up. I feel I could've done better if I had more experience with the job.



Overall it was a good run, but it just goes to show that O/U isn't as hard as people make it out to be. Many mistakes were made on our winning won and we still won with 8 minutes left on the clock. It's pretty hard, but I think SE could still make a harder and still "fair" BC for ToAU.

Kind of sucked for me though, didn't really get to Rp after like everyone else and we had to cancel the weekly RP event just to do it. But I don't even have access to my account right now so I guess it doesn't really matter.

Wanna sleep, wish I could sleep. I'd say something trite like, "depression sucks" here but it'd be an obvious attention grab seeing as how the statement is self-evident.



For some reason the topic of coolest ways to die comes to me. Here's 10 in no particular order. Here's a homework assignment for you guys, YOU number from best to worst. I'm too lazy to copy & paste all of that.

1) Like I was talking to someone earlier about, I often think about randomly running my car off the road for seemingly no reason. It amuses me, police officers trying to determine cause of death or just what was going through my head when I did it. They'd never figure out that I just randomly decided to run my car off the road for absolutely no reason. That amuses me.

2) Suicide in school. I don't think it'd actually bother any of the other people in your class. Do it right before finals too. People can claim to be mentally stressed out as a result or psychological damaged. Who knows, maybe your death will help someone pass a class they would've otherwise failed. There's some meaning.

3) Kill yourself in any way you want and leave a cryptic suicide note and a trail of clues that links you to a political scandal and makes the police question whether it was suicide or an orchastrated murder. I've always wanted my own conspiracy theory.

4) Human experiments. Grab a bunch of household products and start doing what the labels tell you not to. For the domestic rebel in you.

5) In some way that hurts American Idol (god I hate that show).

6) Write Maddox a horribly contrived and sensitive piece of mail claiming to be his biggest fan while poking each and every pet peeve you can. When he rips you a new one in response, kill yourself, make sure you state that you're doing it for him so that he no longer has to suffer your existence. Seeing his website get shut-down would amuse me.

7) Lighting yourself on fire in public. Yeah, I know, this one isn't original, but I have to admit those Buddhist monks had the right idea.

8) Ebay Auction. Though I don't know if it'd be legal. Say you're going to kill yourself if someone doesn't buy your continued existence. I guess you'd have to make sure to clarify that
it's not slavery. If someone buys your continued existence you won't become a slave or owe them anything. You win both ways with this. If someone pays you, you're rich. If you don't get the money, you're dead so it doesn't matter anyway.

9) In someone's house who you hate. Just think of how complicated their life is about to get.

10) Pick someone and see if you can goade them into murdering you. Might take awhile, but imagine all of the fun you'll have. Make sure you leave some documents in your room or somewhere you know people will find them explaining that's what you planned all along.

Man I'm feeling morbid tonight.

Listening to:
Nothing you care about.

Technology and Terrorism

Lets go back to 9/11. Roll back to right after the acts had been confirmed as terrorism and follow the thought process. Why did they attack us?

This was only asked briefly in passing. Immediately greeted with a response of, "They hate our freedoms." Or maybe it was the Infidel excuse, make it religious. Nevermind the fact that the Muslim religion is tolerant of Christians and Jews, infact they hold the position that all three religions worship the same god. Why would they attack a country out of sight and out of mind, responsible for pumping money into their region via oil sales, for absolutely no reason?

Well, I've already gone over that. It's a history of conflict between Westerners and Middle-Easterners. Even going back to the Crusades. It might've started religiously, with the Crusade's goal of retaking Jerusalem, but the most recent reason was political. We supported the creation of the Nation of Israel, causing a region of the world to erupt into violence for the last what, 50-60 years? Ever since then it's just gone back and forth and people have become more and more entrenched in the fighting.

We think we can defeat terrorism militarily, by killing anyone who wants to kill us. The whole concept is nonsense. Each and every time you kill a terrorist you polarize their friends and family against you. You create more terrorists with each one you kill. Iraq's been a shining example of that, whether you think they had WMDs or not, whether you think there were terrorists or not, we can certainly agree that after Iraq more terrorists exist in the world, not less.

So if we can't kill them, disarm them? Impossible. You cannot control every arms manufacturer, you can't keep them from making it themselves, and you can't patrol the world. It's simply not possible. No system is flawless, eventually weapons will fall through the cracks, and end up exploding in America. The problem with technology is that it is incredibly condensed power. In the past if you wanted to kill say, 500 people, you needed 500 people to do it. Technology enables the individual to commit acts of senseless brutality that only armies could in the past.

So in the world we live in, you cannot kill all of your enemies, you cannot stop them all, and technology enables the few that succeed to do massive damage. Lets face it, it's just a matter of time until a terrorist gets ahold of and detonates a Nuclear Weapon on U.S. soil. So what's the solution? How can we truly be safe? Simple...

Stop making enemies. It doesn't matter who's right and who's wrong. If we want to be safe, stop making people want to kill us. This goes back to "why"? Why do they want to kill us. Cause they hate who are? Nope. It's cause of Israel, our attitude towards the world, and our machoesque policies.

We *know* the world despises America. If we know that, how do we think we can possibly win the war on Terrorism?

This weekend in the news...

Here's a summary of the news for those of you two lazy or self important to actually pay attention to the workings of the world around you.

• The UN peace resolution

Rejected by Lebanon for silly reasons. All Israel wanted was to continue to leave troops in their country, is that too much to ask?!

• WMD

Half of the US still believes that Iraq had weapons of mass destruction, despite any proof to support this claim, and dozens to support otherwise (like patrolling the entire countryside after we removed the "dangerous regime" and finding nothing). Why? Who friggin' knows.

• Iraq & Lebanon

For awhile, the war in Iraq was Iraqis killin' Iraqis. We can thank our friends in Israel for attacking Lebanon, now it's returned to Iraqis killin' Americas. Whatever would we do without you Israel?

• Less Oil

8% of US oil production comes from a field in Alaska called Prudhoe bay (what a name). Apparently she's sick of gettin' drilled so she ain't givin' anymore oil (I had to do that, but it's funnier than the real reason). So get ready for another increase in oil prices.

• Cindy Sheehan

Well, she started up again outside Bush's ranch. Who cares. One person protesting again and again, and...? Not interested in the opinion of one zealot. If protestors reached a record high in numbers, that I'd like to hear. We don't need semi-celebrity political zealots. Especialy those who don't even have their own radio show.

• Scholars for 9/11 Truth

A group, lead by academics, called Scholars for 9/11 Truth is aiming to expose a supposed conspiracy theory around the 9/11 incidents. The main arguing point is over whether or not the towers were brought down by demolition or the planes. What do I think? I dunno... I think that's the best position to adopt.

There you go you lazy bastards. Congratulations, you've avoided being responsible for your own political education yet again. The founders of this country weep at your failure of responsibility.

"Those people including women and children who were killed in this horrible tragic incident may have been killed by Israeli fire but they are the victims of the Hezbollah," Gillerman the Israeli Ambassador to the U.N. said. "They are the victims of terror. If there were no Hezbollah this would never have happened."

Qana, history in the making?

Sunday morning, while they were sleeping, Israeli missiles detonated in a village in southern Lebanon called "Qana" killing 56 people total, 34 of which were children. The Israeli Prime Minister's response is, of course, to blame Hezbollah for it. Hezbollah didn't fire the damn missiles.

Bush's commentary was on the same lines. Expressing "grief" over the losses, and then claiming its all the terrorist's fault that it is happening. Would there even be terrorists without Israel creating them by invading other countries and killing people enmasse? People don't grow to hate you completely irrationally, oftentimes, there's a reason, and Israel gives the world plenty of reasons. And by proxy, since we're Israel's lapdog, it gives the world reasons to hate us.

People in Lebanon are already blaming us. In response to the attack outraged citizens marched on the U.N. buildings in the area, breaking windows, slashing furniture, vast vandalizm. Protestors are carrying "Death to America" banners and the entire west is getting condemned.

Bush claims this is an important part in the war on terror, I agree, it's just I have to ask who won this battle? Sure as hell ain't us. This is just going to create more support for Hezbollah in the middle east and terrorism in general. We're fueling the fires of Western and Israeli hatred instead of taking the wind out of their sails. We're creating more terrorists faster than we're killing them, and committing acts of terror at the same time by killing innocent civilians in large numbers. Over 500 people have died since the Lebanese campaign started.

There's no telling what's going to happen now, Secretary Rice is cancelling her diplomatic visit to the region (I wonder if she's worried about getting hit by Israeli missiles) so hopes of a peaceful and swift resolution at this point are looking dim. If this keeps up, soon a real conflict will emerge. Maybe Qana will be the spark that ignites the entire region ablaze. Something your kids will read about in history textbooks many years down the road?

What the Hezbollah?

I'm guessing a lot of people are wondering just what Hezbollah is. READ.

http://www.cfr.org/publication/9155/

Israel <3

"Israel was also under fire over the killing of four UN peacekeepers Tuesday in what UN chief Kofi Annan charged was an "apparently deliberate" targeting of their post." Yahoo News Article

To make matters worse Israel is still continuing their operations in the Gaza Strip and have killed 24 people today alone. At least 3 of which were children under the age of 10.

Gotta love our allies.

Israel vs. Hizbollah

Simply put, it's not looking good.

Israel is bombing the hell out of Lebanon under grounds that Hizbollah has been shooting rockets at Israel over the border and has captured two Israeli soldiers. For those who don't know, Hizbollah is an Islamic Extremist organization, widely considered in the west to be a terrorist organization with power in the area.

Hizbollah rocket attacks have purportedly killed 15 people, whereas Israeli has killed over 300 already confirmed in the fighting.

The UN is urging that the fighting be stopped, claiming that it will cause a humanitarian crisis (and it will). At first the US's position was silence, but once they release an official statement they came out in full support of Israel. And it's only going to get worse. Israel is apparently planning ground-manuvers not just air strikes.

Just about every country in the middle east that's opened its mouth condemns Israel's actions. Mark my words, time will tell, that our support for Israel will be a bigger threat to national security than anything that's happened since 9/11.

I don't think anything exposes the true nature of Israel like this particular detail. A UN outpost on the border badly damaged in all of this. Israel claimed that Hizbollah attacked it with a rocket. But firsthand UN witnesses claim Israeli Artilery Fire is to blame.

Syriana

I finally got around to seeing this movie. It's about the middle east, oil, and terrorism.

// SPOILERS

As a whole it had a few good ideas but was way too conspiracy theory ridden and some parts made no sense at all.

I like the idea of walking you through the life of some potential terrorists, but I don't think *real* terrorists think exactly like that. Middle-East terrorism causes are much more tied to Palestine and places where the west has interfered politically in their life, not economically. Though I guess both are possible, I don't think it's an accurate portrayal of terrorism in the modern day.

I wish they had the balls to walk you through the Israel/Palestine conflict and educate the American populace to it, but no one seems to. So, I'm not really surprised.

END SPOILERS //

I think I'd give it a C+. The movie tries very hard, and fails in a few key areas. Such as tying
all of the loose ends together at the end. It's confusing, dialogue driven, and detail heavy. Was difficult for me to follow and I usually don't have problems with that.

Random

1) I remember standing on the stairs somewhere in a park and telling someone my age when I was 8 years old. There might've been a balloon invovled, I don't know.

2) I hate nondairy creamer. When I put too much in, it doesn't merge the coffee. The coffee denies my transplant of yummyness. And this makes me sad.

The Weather Channel

I hate the Weather Channel.

Try listening to their "anchors" sometime. They motion at the pretty map and use inclusive language. "We're going to be seeing some..." NO YOU'RE NOT. I will be if I live there. Don't try to sympathize with me for my bad weather. You won't be seeing any of it. And I might ENJOY some of what I'm seeing. Not everyone looks for sun-shiney days you know.

And I hate it when they tell me what to do. "Break the out Umbrella, cause it's going to rain today!" No. I don't even own one. I've never used one in my life. I have no fear of water. Infact I stand naked infront of falling water on a DAILY basis. I don't see why I'd be afraid of doing it in clothing.

I love Coffee

Not cause it wakes you up. Not cause it tastes good. Not cause it smells nice. But because I can put creamer in it, drink it, and then it tastes good. On its own, coffee is a terrible thing. But when you add creamer, it's magically delicious. I can think of no other food which tastes like ass completely unaltered, but when you add condiments, it's good. I don't even think it's the coffee that makes it good, it's just an excuse to allow me to drink the creamer. Here's to you coffee.

EDIT: OH, and it's the first day of July. SHIT. One month gone. College... nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Super Spit

I just saw this water-gun comercial. It's funny how they make a big deal out of them.

YOU CAN LOCK IN THE EXTRA POWER PACK TO DOUBLE YOUR WATER SUPPLY AND SHOOT WATER AT PEOPLE EVEN HARDER!!! But... it's still water. OH NO YOU MADE MY SKIN A LITTLE ANNOYED WITH YOUR HIGH PRESSURE. WHATEVER SHALL I DO AGAINST YOUR SUPER SOAKER XII5,000 2!?

If they *really* wanted to make super soakers that intimidated the competition, they need new types of ammo. Being shot by water just isn't bad enough. I say they introduce a new line of ammo: "Celebrity Saliva." All of the cool kids will be shooting people with Stephen Hawking drool before you know it. And you'll think twice before going up against the kid with Paris Hilton spit, you don't know where it's been.

Zombie Attack

Every now and then I like to practice a certain mental exercise. I ask myself what I would do in completely improbable situations. Today's situation: Zombie Attack.

You gotta figure, you can't kill the zombies. There's a near endless amount of them. Cause... there's billions of people on the planet and at least 99% of them are dumb enough that they'd be dead in 15 minutes. So the first order of business is deciding where you're gonna escape to. That's what they always do in movies, you gotta have a "I'm going to escape to here" plan.

Personally, I'd go to an island in the middle of the Pacific (or was it the Atlantic). And why not that island from "Castaway"? I could just go to the store and get a spalding volleyball and use it as my magical guide to safety. I'd have to make a bloody handprint on it, but... that's easy enough. Lots of dead people around from the zombies?

Then it's just a matter of securing an airplane, or a boat, or a cruise liner... zombie cruise liner... that'd be something new.

Did you hear about the cruise liner that got attacked by pirates a few months back? I'm not kidding, a cruise liner was actually attacked by pirates recently. They used a "sonic weapon" to scare it off. Imagine what their ancestors are thinking from the great beyond. "Arrr matey, we left the trade to these wussies who got scared off by a LOUD NOISE?"

At any rate. Zombie Cruiser Liner, a new movie, coming to a threatre near you, as soon as I can find someone dumb enough to produce it.

Bleh...

Woke up today at 1:30 p.m. after going to bed at around 10:30 a.m. I can't really figure it out. In a terrible mood too. That's no surprise, been in a terrible mood all week. Sick and tired of my life. Buuuut, you don't care about that.

I see a bible on the stand next to my computer. This reminds me of the Ucarist (or however it's spelled).

Had an argument recently with my father over whether or not his specific branch of Christianity believes if they're eating a 2,000 year old dead guy or not. Ultimately he pulled out that Lutherans believe in "Constansubstatiation" or some ridiculously dense word like that. Basically it's a made up term so that they can believe that the communion wafers and wine doesn't actually turn INTO Jesus, just that it gains his spirit or something. Totally ridiculous and clearly a christian attempt at trying to circumvent basic logic in order to look less insane. Not fooling me.

There's not even any support in the bible for communion. They take ONE line at the end of the last supper bit and make it into a serious tradition and claim Jesus asked them to do it. Just as there's little to no mention of church other than "fellowship with other believers" until you start getting into the ambitions of the leftover members of Jesus' following after his death.

I don't see how anyone can possibly be dense enough to believe this stuff, but... eh. These are the same people who tend to vote for Bush, so it doesn't surprise me.

Osama Bin Guilty?

This always amused me.

The war on terror is making more terrorists. Each and every child who's parents die as a result of our actions in the middle east grows up with a chip on their shoulder against us. What do you think these kids do when they grow up? What do you think they influence others to do?

Instead of asking why 9/11 happened, why it REALLY happened, we took a basic explaination: "9/11 happened because terrorists attacked us." Well, yes, but WHY did they attack us? They hate our freedoms? Come on, does ANY thinking individual really buy that?

Ask yourself why the terrorists attacked us. Better yet, lets ask them! If only Osama had told us why... oh he did. His reason was Israel?

Israel what? Now, I don't think most Americans know anything at all about Israel, so let me paint a picture for you.

It's the 1950s and the Holocaust has just happened. Thousands of Jews are wiped out and the United States feels guilty for sitting back and doing nothing at the start of the war while the Nazis carried out a calculated extermination of an entire race of people. Don't think we didn't know, we just didn't care. After all, when we finally decided to go to war, we only did it out of self-interest, it took an attack on US to make it happen.

The war has ended and the rebuilding has begun. We're getting into cold-war territory with the Soviety Union, and the Europeans are trying to figure out what to do with the remaining Jews in order to prevent further racial intolerance and make up the entire event to everyone of their ethnicity. Great Britain's givin' up its colonies, and they happen to have one in a funny little area called Palestine. Oddly enough, that territory ALSO happens to be where the Jewish Holy Land "Israel" was.

Naturally they decided to give the territory up to the Jews. Sounds nice, doesn't it? How nice of Britian and the United States to back them. There was just one problem... Some people were already living in Palestine...called uh, Palestinians? I mean, what the hell were THEY doing there?

The newly formed U.N. mapped out territory for the Jews to have, and split the area up, so that Israel could be formed and a seperate state of Palestine. But Israel wasn't happy. They wanted more land. And then religious tensions fired... and the region has been in a perpetual state of warfare since.

The United States has supplied Israel with Nuclear Weapons, defends Israel from U.N. security council decisions which would condemn their actions against the Palestinian people, and assist in any way they can so that Israel further digs its teeth into land that isn't theirs.

The Palestinians have become so desperate and lost as a people that they've started strapping bombs to their chest and blowing themselves up in a desperate attempt to do SOMETHING about a horrible situation. Suicide bombing isn't the work of evil masterminds, but tragically hopeless people.

Did Osama have a good reason? I don't know. Nothing justifies what happened on 9/11. But pretending like Osama is the only one to blame and there's nothing we can do aside from killing those who we consider our enemies is ridiculous. Yank support for Israel and terrorists will stop trying to kill us. Or is that too common sense?

Creation

So I made my blog at 4:44 a.m. today.

Realistically I know that no one will probably read this or care even remotely. Why did I make this? For the same reason every moron who makes a blog creates one. They entertain some delusion that their personal thoughts and experiences contain something special, that what they have to say to the world is actually unique and of worth.

Moreover that being heard by the world is dependant on the message's quality and not pure blind luck.

I am not so optomistic, naive, or stupid.

I just thought this would be a nice place to start.